Failure

It would seem that life is made up of failures and successes. Its like I come to the place where I'm ok, I'm working hard to be who I want to be, and then I fail. Like tonight. My brother was ragging on me for something that I do very infrequently and that he does every day and I got so fed up with it. Why is it so easy for me to see his arrogance and not my own penchant to do the same? Isn't it arrogant to notice that in him? Of course it is! It just drives me crazy. I'm constantly taking one step forward and three steps back...meaning I go backwards. That is so frustrating! Sometimes I wish life were like school. When I took classes, I knew how to study, hwo to pass. With life, its totally different. There isn't really pass/fail (despite the title of this entry). There's just one choice or another and then the consequences. I hate that I let my emotions sway my head. What I know is a wrong choice - one that has bad consequences - when I am calm gets chosen when I'm in the midst of the moment. AHHHH!!!